Helplessly Screaming…
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
It has been so long since I felt it, but each time it happens its the most wonderful feeling in my heart it feels like nothing can go wrong. But in real life, here, now, thats just wishful thinking and whomever thinks that way is either naive ir just didn’t care. The problem is that I care too much and worry too much that its hurting me inside. But whats hurting me is small when its compared by the hurt of others. I just can’t stand seeing them so miserable, so sad, so helpless that they dont know what they’re gonna do. Especially if it involves someone you care about deeply. What should I do? Should I interfere? Should I help? Should I just stay at the sideline and just watch?? Oh, the delimma that I am in! How I wish to just jump in and end the charrade, the white lies and the pretence. Getting sick and tired. I feel like scooping them up and taking them away to a safer, happier place. And in the process making myself happy also. I’d rather sacrice myself then to see others hurt. Screaming and shouting inside but nobody to save me. My own personal demons has finally risen again and i’m being split in two. Should I forgo all my precautions and let my emotions, my rage, my anger out? Or do I stay still and bottle everything inside me til the day I die? "How I wish I could SCREAM… Scream till I lose my voice! Scream till somebody hears me! Oh woe for the heart that hath no place t’rest. Woe for the soul that hath no place to find comfort. For this heart has been giveth away. Belonging to another which could not be his…Or could it?" Oh what a sad sight I am. Weak for myself but strong for another. Be warned o’ for the oblivious, for Self sacrifice eats at ones heart and soul…But it takes another for the pair of US to finally be happy!
Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.
