Seven Sins of the Soul…
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
Have I Lost it? Am I losing it? The mind, MY mind… the feeling of heaviness, and numbness, waking up every single day after the day my life unexpectedly turned again. For better for worst, I’ll never know. For the most part of it, the feeling sometimes overwhelms me. It overwhelms me to the point that emotions are my better judgment, but my physical enemy. Happiness, Sadness, Depression, ANGER plays a better role of ruling my life for I sometime trust their judgment than those of others who would care for me. Do my mind hurts like a thousand thunders cracking in the evening sky, like the vengeance of Greek gods of old, to sooth such pain requires more than soft healing hands of an angel. Not of me, a mortal man chained to the world where the Seven Sins rule with an iron fist.
Pride: Never asking for help because by my own hands shall I resolve all conflicts, not wanting to involve other who might get hurt.
Envy: Yearning and wanting something that not even time can tell, hence when patience is consumed, the sky will fall
Gluttony: The endeavor of consumption of the best food and drinks gives pleasure to those who appreciates it
Lust: Pleasures of the flesh, to feel the warmth of the worldly sun embodied in the bodily flesh
Wrath: Through the haze of Mars Red, everything around me is consumed like a pyroclastic cloud from an angry giant. The mind goes blank and ones body is just a blur of motion
Greed: To share ones wealth which was hard earned to those who takes life for granted. To embellish without a thought of prudence, the naivety the human mind
Sloth: Heavy bones not cause of the passing years burdens my physical soul. When the mind and heart weakens, when the soul and the body bears no strength to do anything. The mind blanks into emptiness, the body to stillness. Laziness envelopes the person and nothing is done. Another sign of a tortured soul.
What is it that makes a man, a Man? Is it his physical strength to endure, is it his mind that can withstand the constant bombardment of the five senses? Or is it the fact that he can disappear within himself when he finds that what he hold dear is no longer reachable. Even after all his effort to remain calm and impartial to the possibility of losing in any form of battle. To a man, the worst pain is still the pain of the heart. Will he be strong enough to endure it? Will he be able to think clearly through the haze of fear, anger and mistrust? Will he look at the reflection of himself or blame others for his misfortune? So many things could bring us to our downfall…
The fear of losing his or her sanity from the shock or the loss of somebody who has meant so much to them. To be left alone again, in the darkness of the bottomless pit. The pit which he took so long to crawl out of and into the light. His mind aches. He’s soul is restless. Every single kind of emotions races in his mind wanting release. They say time heal all wounds, but how much is that is true? It differs for everybody.
The mind is so tired. So very tired. My strength weakens. My mind is numb. The feeling of not caring what should happen sinks deeper into the soul. Acceptance. That is the only thing we all can do. Again we sink into the darkness of our soul.
"Feelings and Emotions are of fragile things. Care for it as if you care for a baby. For when you lose the Light that lightens your Life, only Dark Oblivion awaits."Adjaymagic@yahoo.co.uk
Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.
