Life Changing Moments
Friday, May 11th, 2007
What is it about our lives that make us make decisions that may change our lives or how we view our lives completely. The moments where you feel like your life either does a complete change-over or whack us at the side of our head and we feel like we’ll never be the same again. Finding someone. Losing someone. Or just making a decision and knowing we’ll regret it for the rest of our remaining mortal life. A decision we know we have to make for the better of everybody. A life altering decision. And everything is over and done with, we start to wonder if we did the right thing. We start to second guess ourselves and wonder what would it be like if we had made a different choice. What if had stood up for what we believed. Fought for what we wanted. For what we Love. For that person. For that moment. For the Life that might have been…
I’ve made plenty of mistakes in My life. Mistakes which I’ve regretted and wished I can pull back. I may not be the person that people around me know. I have secrets. I’m no Saint but sometimes I feel that I have the patience of one. I’m not being pretentious, it’s just how its been. Maybe thats the problem. I’m just too patient. Just taking and accepting whatever comes my way. Without a word. Without a comment. Whether it small insignificant things or heavy labor. I take it in as a man should. I saw a movie recently and a snip from it caught my attention. These words were spoken, "are you able to put the wife first before the husband?" Or something like it. In my mind, I think "are you willing to put the one you Love first before yourself?" My answer to that is… Yes. Yes I would. Without regret. And the funny thing is I’ve already spoken those words. A true man keeps to his promise(s). And I intend to keep to that promise. Come hell on earth, nothings going to change my mind except an act of God.
If a person is willing to give himself willingly to the person they Love, does that make them weak? Does looking through the eyes of others see that person as worthless and any less of a man? What right do they have to judge the choices that person makes? When it was a choice made willingly and unforced? Another snipped quotes from a movie,"action and reaction, cause and effect." Whatever choice we make in our life, there will always be some sort of reaction. Good or Bad? Nobody knows. But its bound to happen. And it all depends on the choice(s) we make.
I’ve made my choices. There are more acceptance of the choice then there are of regrets. I’ve lived my life to fullest these 3 decades and I’ll still live my life the way I see fit for another 3 to 4 decades. Maybe I’ll share my life with the one I’ve chosen as my Love or somebody who’s chosen me as their Love. Theres nothing wrong to dream. To hope, for a better tomorrow and to be with that someone special who’s made a big impact in your life. You know who you are and I’ve made my choice. No regrets. But it doesn’t mean I won’t enjoy Life. Only means I’ll be doing it alone for a while…
The Choice. To Dream. To Hope. To Love. To Want. To Need. To Yearn. To Not Regret.
I’m Alive!
