Adjay77’s Memories…

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What is it that can make a person have so much trouble sleeping? I can ask that question because I have been having this problem for the past few days now. In fact, i’m actually writing this blog at 4 o’clock in the morning, unable to sleep for unknown reasons. Was it the food I ate last night? Is it the humidity (actually it is VERY hot right now)? Or is it this nagging thing at the back of my mind which for the life of me I don’t know what it is… Now that i’m thinking about it, I don’t know WHY i’m even writing this Blog.

There’s this overwhelming feeling right now that I am experiencing. The sense of helplessness, loneliness, feeling lethargic, uselessness, aimless, and a whole lot more. All chunked into a walking lump of (slowly decaying) human flesh. Mindlessly walking around like some zombie with a soul, lost in a sea of people, without a purpose.
What is it that I am actually experiencing? Can anybody tell me? Its so familliar, yet very elusive, like a distant touch of a lost love. Could that be it? Loneliness? Solitude? Two things that I feel I have in abundance of and only now feeling its effects?

How long have I been staring at the screen writing this sad excuse of a blog? Very long as I can see the first light of dawn seeping through my bedroom window. Such a soft blue which will slowly and eventually turn into the bright burning light of the sun. The feel of the soft touch of the cold morning dew and the inevitable start of a new day. What will I do? What will I accomplish today? The feeling of dread in my heart nearly overwhelms me if not for my self discipline. But how long will that last? How long will I be in control of my mind and soul? Without a Life, without a Purpose, without Love?

The slow spiral down to my own oblivion…

Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

Its 2006, its the New Year. I’m suddenly jobless, but strangely enough i’m not freaking out about it. For unknown reasons, i’m actually excepting the whole situation in a positive light. Currently i’m not doing a single thing productive to solve my current situation. But instead of looking desperately for available job vacancies, i’m actually out and enjoying myself with friends and completely forget about my current situation.

Guess what i’ve been doing in the last 10 days? I’ve celebrated my Birthday/Christmas. I’ve celebrated New Year 2005/06 with buddies with dinner at Hugz SS15 and walking all over Subang Jaya a few minutes before New Year (it was just brainless fun).

Then to celebrate, we played Warcraft Frozen Throne till 6 a.m.! Hanging out and having fun…

I guess what i’ve been trying to do is to ignore the ‘bad-hand’ that i’ve been dealt right after my Birthday. AFTER MY BIRTHDAY! Imagine being called into the boss office and getting "I have to let you go" speach. Wonderful Birthday Present don’t you think (note the sarcasm)? I know its not his fault or anything. Its just the unstable economy and bad luck on the agency’s part. I’m not complaining or anything (well, maybe a bit) but I had a great 9 months working in MagicMakers. Hey, meeting/seeing celebrities, big shots and ministers of the country, help organize and supervise big events, meeting and making new friends and working on iMac G4’s and G5 Titanium machines with devilishly fast (and free) internet connection! Its a great place to work. Its too bad that their just having a bad streak.

Sometimes I think my positive personality, and habit of thinking things through before doing anything, is causing me to take the whole jobless thing in stride? I mean, i’m literally NOT freaking out about it. I’m more like "oklah, whatever. I’ll just look for another job", kind of attitude. For those who know me well, do you think i’m too relaxed about the whole situation?

I remember Gary saying something about it but I can’t seem to remember what it is. Something about me being an earth element or wood element or something. My head was abuzz with Warcraft action so I can’t seem to recall what was said. Should I bum-at-home for a few days? Or should I be hectically running all over Damansara, Bangsar, Petaling Jaya and Kelana Jaya looking for a job?

I’ve always had friends asking me for my opinions and i’ve always been truthfully and straight-forward with them. Look things on the bright and positive side. But in the end i’ve always told them, "the bottom line is, you yourself still have to make the final decision and not me or anybody else." Its strange that i’ve always been around for my closest friends to help them and giving my comments and opinions. Heheh, its like consultation sessions and the payment is buy me lunch or something. Not that i’m a busybody or anything, I’m just lending a friendly ear, listening to friends problems and anguish, just being there as a friend and if need be a shoulder to cry on (girls only).

There I go again, rambling to you all when you have better things to do than reading my sorry story. To actually say this at the end of my Blog defeats the purpose of trying to stop you from reading it, right? Oh well, too late now…
Anyways, thanks for sparing a few minutes to listening to my rambling Heart.

Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

For Your Information, I am sad to announce that I would not be working anymore at MagicMakers Sdn. Bhd. starting from the 1st January 2006. It is not anybody’s fault, just a business decision which was made by management. Ajency jobs were hard to come by and was not able to afford to keep a full time Designer so a decision was made to release me.
It was a wonderful 9 months full of experiences and friendship and I have no regrets. I have learnt a lot and now I must go on forth and look for a new experience (and a paycheck). But this doesn’t mean that i’m going to disappear from the face of the planet, just not gonna be online that often updating my Blog and answering emails.
So people, I hope to see hear or see you all very soon becasue i’ll be knocking at your agency door looking for a job! Muahahahahh!

Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

The Year is slowly coming to a close and One finally begins to retrospect what has been happening to One self for the past year. Has it been a productive one or have I just go through life one day at a time? Just like my motto which I have followed for the past two years. …Carpé Diém… Seize The Moment. Live For Today. But the question would be, what did I just ‘Lived’ for? What actually did
These are just SOME of the things that are going through my mind right now as I sit in front of my office iMac and typing out this Blog for one and all to see. I guess I want to share with all you people out there my whole year (or whatever that I remember of it).
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January
… Still on Holiday after finishing (finally) my Degree program at LimKokWing University Institute Of Creative Technology, Cyberjaya which was in December. Damn, did I put on weight!
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February
… Was called back from Miri to attend my Graduation Ceremony, on which was held on the LimKokWing campus. My parents and my Uncle and Aunty (whom I stayed with close for 4 years here in KL) attended. *Sigh* Blank sheet or rolled up paper. But at least the graduate group photo shoot was excellent. I can actually see my face behind one of the Deans that attended!
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March
… 15th March. Started work in MagicMakers Sdn. Bhd. as a Graphic Designer after close to one month of running around looking for job vacancies. 3 months probation. It was also Trial By Fire. On my appointment on the first week, I had to attend a photo shoot and video record it for Ziana Zain and VONO Slumberland Renewal Event. And from all those images and I had to develop a Video Documentary of the photo shoot. Sorta like a Documentary of the whole entire day.
… Went up for a Genting Highland trip with Irene and her Girlfriends. What can I say? Three girls and a sole guy as bodyguard? The only thing I have to worry about is old perverted geezers ogling at the girls and me being slightly over protective! Sightseeing and good food was also a boon. At least I spent a bit more time with Irene just to help her relax and to forget about her worries.
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April
… Had a BIG steamboat dinner with friends at Yuen Steamboat Bandar Sunway. If I wasn’t mistaken it was sort of Ex-Press The Play Button get together dinner or something. We ate like there was no tomorrow.
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May
… Went back to Kuching for a few days for my cousin Azhan’s wedding. My parents flew up from Miri also to attend the wedding. Now that was fun because my whole family was in Kuching where I was born. And slleping in my new grandparents house for the first time after the renovation. Too bad the wedding day was a rainy one.
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June
… My cousin Firdaus wedding in Pulau Pinang which I couldn’t attend. Was suppose to be a road trip but I was caught up with work I couldn’t go. I heard it was a lot of fun. Crap.
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July
… Went to Melaka for the Melaka Scooter Competition. It was about a 4 hour ride from Kuala Lumpur to reach Melaka with a couple of stops in between. Stayed in a cheap motel the night before the competition and it was held at the Multimedia University Melaka. It was a scorcher of a day but luckily I didn’t get sun burnt or anything. As usual, there were lots of designs and customize being show cased and it just simply amazes me how far an individual would go to make his or her scooter stand out from the rest!
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August
…UK Education Fair 2005 which was held at the KL Convention Centre KLCC. Lots of UK colleges and universities put up their booths to promote their respective places. I of course was there to cover the event of Middlesex University and an award ceremony to one of their top students.
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September
… A crappy month where nothing seems to be going well or right.
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October
… PaintBall Wars organized by Nicholas Chhan a.k.a. XEOS, and his Celestial Guild which was held at the XPaint Facility in Bukit Jalil . We had so much fun (mixed with a lot of pain)! Bumps and bruised with everything in between! There can be no comparison to being shot and targeted by friends and foes. Heck, I was shot in the face! TWICE! Just the adrenaline rush of rushing into battle trying to win the game at any costs. Of course planning and strategies does come to play, but in the end it was pure dumb luck and persistence that could turn the tide for the winners and the losers. But we all had fun. I had bruised ribs for a month to remind me of how much fun I had! Never do a Superman dive on hard ground with protruding tree roots…
… MagicMakers dinner at Pizza Italia Uno in USJ Taipan. It was a wonderful dinner with great food and excellent atmosphere. I had the meatball Fettucini which was delicious. But a word of advice. Never, EVER, eat a spoonful of Olives. I ate it on a dare and I have regretted that decision ever since…
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November
… had a LONG Hari Raya holiday. Close to two weeks of fun and relaxation back home in Miri.
… 20th November. ,Dann’s Birthday gathering at Yuen Steamboat. Yuen seems to be a regular party spot for us circle of friends nowadays. Oh and did we eat like a party too! I can never get enough of the place not because of the great food but also because of its reasonable price! After that, we raided Nick’s place for a night of fun and games! Charades, card games, board games, games and DVD’s. And more food and drinks. BANZAI!
… 30th November. 2005 Car Of The Year Award Event where I developed/ handled the Audio Visuals for the event which was held in the LéMeridian Hotel, Kuala Lumpur Central,. The biggest event that I went to this year where you can see the who’s who of the automotive world and Datuks and Ministers. The MC of the the night kind of sucked though…
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December
… 21st December. Company Christmas Lunch at the Hilton Petaling Jaya.
… 24th December. My Birthday Dinner at Yuen Steamboat at Sunway. We all ate so much we were all feeling Bloated. One of the seven Sins. Gluttony, felt very prominent on that evening!
… 25th December. Dusk Till Dawn Gaming with Best Buds. Tom Yam Dinner at USJ Taipan and the First birthday gift of the Day. A Shuriken Pillow from Yeevon and Dann. That was pretty cool to through around! Now where’s the rest of my presents???
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Of course, most of the things that has been happening this year I try to take some photo’s as memory. Check out my Photo Album and you can see the pictures of the things that has happened to me this year. I guess this is my Re-cap of 2005. Interesting? Productive? I don’t know. What I know is that it wasn’t so boring that I had to beat my head on the wall for a thrill! All I know is I had quite a fun and eventful year with friends and family. What else can I say?

nd when you think things can’t get any worse… It just got worse. This 9 whole days of December has been one of the most depressing days for this whole year! Not to mention the last two weeks of November. Its just one of those days you wish it would just end quickly to end the suffering. All nighter doing work and coming home at the crack of dawn only to come back to the office at 9 (my body is still readjusting and still not fully recovered). A boss who excepts jobs which needs to be done in three days time. A boss who like to do things last minute and then dumps everything on others so that he can return to his G5 mixing non-stop-music for himself which has no connection AT ALL with the work at hand. If its not that he’s pounding away at the keyboard doing god knows what in his private la-la land sending emails to goodness knows where. (For those who has a good imagination, I think you can sense the sarcasm and anger behind my words…)
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There are also some things that is BEYOND my control that may effect my work that even the Boss may not understand. Mainly because (in my opinion) he has never experienced it. He sits in his RAV4 zooming left right and centre not even realizing not all people has the luxury of having a problem free transportation. I believe that any kind of machinery has a mind of its own. It could work wonderfully for months on end wether is a simple watch or a complicated computer or car. Or on some time it just screws with you big time and gets you in a whole lot of trouble befitting of a grand execution. Today I came in Late at 10.30 am. It was not my fault. The bike wont start. I spent close to an hour trying to fix it and when I got into the office, I got an ear-full…
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The scooter not starting all the sudden in the morning?
ITS BEYOND MY CONTROL you stupid F**K!!
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The small mishap at the Car of the Year Event where the Mac wasn’t doing what it’s suppose to during presentation?
ITS BEYOND MY CONTROL you stupid F**K!!
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The iMac software suddenly not able to open an application causing me not able to get the file the boss needs urgently last minute?
ITS BEYOND MY CONTROL you stupid F**K!!
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The boss not liking Adobe Illustrator and calling it Unprofessional? Try making graphics in Quark or Photoshop…
IT DOESN’T WORK LIKE THAT you stupid F**K!!
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Quark is for copywriters and text layout! Photoshop is for image editing and montages!
ILLUSTRATOR IS FOR CREATING GRAPHICS you stupid F**K!!
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That is why there are Graphic Designers around. We’re the people who are behind the creativity you see around you wether its in the press, TVC or radio. Not the bosses. Not the brand Execs. Not operations. Its us Designers who actually put our lives on hold so that these other people can get all the glory. And if it doesn’t work, they blame it on us. They wont take our ideas, but insist we use theirs. An if we give an opinion, they think we’re being difficult. We’re your employees. Not your slave. We have opinions to be voiced out. We’re not Mute. We have ideas (no matter it big or small). We’re not Dumb. And we have feelings. We’re not Heartless.
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A word of advice for those out there. Never do things last minute. NEVER except things that require last minute (unless you’re sure you can do it with enough time to do corrections). Never give an explanation because the other person will never listen to you. Never take advice from people who calls other people unprofessional but they themselves do not want to learn something new.
And if your given a 2 weeks notice, when you get the chance, F**K them up real good (the bigger the account the better)…
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Thank You for listening to My Angry Screaming Heart.
Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

There are some things in life that you may have no control over. Its something that everybody goes through. Either its at work, at home, in the car; and even at time in places one would think nothing would go wrong (usually). In Your Own Mind.
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You must be wondering what i’m blabbering about. I’m just looking for an outlet to vent out my frustration and it seems like Bloggin is one of those unfortunate places people come and actually ‘vent’ out or people ‘venting’ in. And for those unfortunate enough to open my Blogger and begin reading this… Oops…
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“To Err is Human, To Forgive is Devine…”
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Such a deep statement, and I sometimes wonder “who the hell came up with this kind of stuff?” Human is being human, thats what I think. Whatever shit happens is caused by something that you or somebody else did. No two ways about it, except if you think of it in a spiritual way. Cause and Effect. Action and Reaction. Remember these extracts? Hmm, feel like watching Matrix all the sudden…
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“It is Gods Design. Life; Fate; Destiny; is moved by the Hand of God. And Death is its Consort.”
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Herecy! Pagan! Is that something somebody with religious belief’s would think? In truth, I don’t know. I’m beginning to sound like some bloody Oracle or just a bad version of the Fortune Teller I see in those Mega Malls. Its the way we live, the lifestyle, even the air we breath thats slowly corrupting our souls to damnations. The bottom line is; well, what i’m trying to say is; there are F**ked up days, and there ARE more F**ked up days. And I guess i’m having one of those days. Everybody and everything is the enemy and out to get you. And no matter what you do, you get swallowed by it little by little. In the End, all there is to accompany you is Loneliness.
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Its always by you, with you, In you. Holding you in its cold embrace. Comfort? Fear? What is it that you feel before the Darkness slowly shrouds you in its endless Depths? Whats left?
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Theres only Madness. For those who was Done ME wrong, beware my vengence. Revenge is best harbored till it festers for when IT appears, it will flood even the purest souls. It is Penance and I am the Fire. The satisfaction of Revenge is always so bitter sweet.
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28 years on this Earth, and there has only been two that has seen my other self. My other side which I desperately fight with every single day. But there are moments that Temptation is such sweet nectar. What would happen to the people I Care and Love if my Darker side wins? Who will save my Soul then?
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Thank You for listening to my crying Heart. Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

24 hours ago
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Went online to check my mail and received email from my kid sister containing pictures of my nephew’s 2nd birthday. It was on the 15th. I came back on the 11th. Sucks.
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12 hours ago
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Checked online for more emails to make me feel I haven’t lost contact with the world. Zippo. Nada. Niet. And I think i’m coming down with a bug.
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6 hours ago
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Practically stoned to hell and no kind of Anti-virus will cure. Just have to ride it out. Maybe it came from the Net?
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3 Hours ago
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Sporting a headache, a nose running a decathalon, and ears ringing with clogged up pressure, And i’m still sitting in front of the computer not daring to get an MC.
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One Half hour ago
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Should have gotten an MC. Saved me the trouble of clogging up my nose, carrying a ten ton head adn having ringing ears. Still sitting in front of the Computer watching ‘Valiant’ and doing work at the same time.
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30 minutes ago
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Still sitting infront of the computer and not on MC because i’m the only designer and what would happen i’f i disappeard from the studio?
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Now
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Coughing badly, head splitting and my nose an open faucet. Time to get an MC. I’m still in front of the computer and on the Net. This Sucks…

Hari Raya Aidilfitri,  3rd November 2005. As usual I returned to my hometown of Miri a day or two before the celebration started. Sitting two hours in the plane waiting for mushrooms to grow isn’t my idea of having fun for the last remaining days of the fasting month. It was stated in the newspapers (I think) that the people ‘up-there’ are gonna peer at the moon on the 2nd. Makes me wonder why they do that when they can just ask look at any Chinese calender and can see that the moons up and ready (meaning that Hari Raya is definitely on the 3rd of November). I guess its just to make it official I guess for the ruling authorities.
Saving up my holidays for Hari Raya is well worth it. After close to a year of not coming back, it sure is exhilirating to be home. How long that will last I don’t know yet. I came back to KL was in February, Started working in March and finally come home to rest (after a hectic year) in November. Not bad. But I guess my holiday isn’t long enough because I’ll miss my nephews birthday which is on the 15th November. He’ll be 2 years old. I’m leaving back for KL on the 11th. Screwed up shit that is. This only means I gotta find some big-assed present to give to him. But I don’t think anything’s big enough for a 2 year old unless I get him a car or something like that…
I always thought Hari Raya was gonna be bright and shiny. Guess again. Its wet and cold, water puddles everywhere and mud has taken residential underneath every sliver of grass to make the first day of Hari Raya as uncomfortable as possible. And like hell i’m gonna make that spoil my day (or my holiday for that matter). To prove my pont, I even went out with buddies the night before Raya itself! I think I came back at 2, helped a bit in the kitchen (or watching TV, I can’t remember) then went to sleep koz’ I gotta wake up at 6.30 for Hari Raya prayers.
And after that, its just history. Same thing every year. Went visiting, had an open house, ate and slept to our hearts content after 30 days of fasting. Hey don’t blame me if I gain a couple of kilo’s the next time you guys see me! Believe me when I say I lost 7kg during the fasting season and I think I’m gonna get back to 7kg pretty easily this holiday. What can I do? Three words people, Home cooked food. If you don’t gain weight because of that, then theres definitly something wrong with you.
Anyways, just writing this to ‘brag’ on whats been happening on the first day of the celebrations. Last but not least, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin to each and everyone of you!

ver seen a real life Spiderman? I just heard the strangest story from my apartment-mate Yesterday (Monday 24th Oct 2005). He gave me a call from the apartment saying that we just had a ‘break-in’ while he was still IN our apartment! For those of you who doesn’t know, I just shifted out from my Subang Jaya residence to Palm Springs Apartment in Mutiara Damansara. Cool name huh? Palm Springs!
Anyways, where was I? Oh yeah, the strangest thing about this story is that I live ON THE 22nd FLOOR! The would be burglar apparently scaled the balcony using the security grill as a hand hold (I mean who would have thought somebody would want to use the security grill of an open window as a hand hold ON THE 22nd FLOOR!!) then entered the apartment using the kitchen store window! Palm Springs apartment buildings require a electric pass to get into the building, yet this scrawny dipweed managed to get in and chose my apartment as his target! How’d he get in?? If he can get in… I mean… WHAT THE F***!!?? I think it was also an insiders job! Whats worse, the bugger even had an escape plan! He disappeared like a rat in a rathole when my apartment mate chased him (swinging a NIKE shoe and a 1 meter FRENCH LOAF BREAD)!
Question people: If your chasing a burglar, would you chase him with with ‘A’ shoe and a long French loaf??!!
In the end, I guess the scene that I would definitely would love to see is my apartment-mate whacking the would-be burglar with French loaf bread and his single Nike shoe…Come on people, that would be funny shit!

Nuf’ Said. LaterZ.

p.s.
Were looking for one more apartment-mate. MUST be working, male or female. We can except female also because my Apartment mate sharing the master bedroom with his GF, I take the single room, which leaves one more room for rent. Interested? Drop a message and I’ll get back to you with details.